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earthbelow) wrote2008-09-14 08:19 am
earthbelow) wrote2008-09-14 08:19 am
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Healthcare sucks.
Ugh. I really hate this part.
My prescription has run out on my birth control. Right now I've still got some glucophage left and one refill on it, so I'm good there and I'm hoarding against need.
But trying to get my hands on birth control without a prescription seems impossible. Trying to do it without repeating the panic-attack inducing, anxious, nerve wracking, emotionally fraught process I went through last year seems even less likely.
Right now I'm lost as to what to do.
For the moment, I'll just be abstaining from sex and trying to stretch my glucophage out.
In October, Andrew's insurance will change and maybe I'll be able to go a doctor, but I don't even know if I could do that. Doctors freak me out so very much. Even the nice ones. I've only had one doctor that I had any kind of good relationship with, and she's in Florida and she wasn't a doctor. She was a nurse-practitioner.
The doctor I went to see at the clinic that would finally even see me is gone. She was nice, and I felt okay with her, but she no longer works with them. So there goes that. I don't think I could go back to that clinic anyway, because it's scary for me.
Planned Parenthood is right out. I love PP for what they stand for, but it really hurts when you know a crackwhore could walk off the street and get all the BC they needed, but they won't help you.
Note to self: don't tell doctors about conditions that aren't their goddamn business. The ob-gyn doesn't need to know about your insulin issues, and she'll withhold medication from you if you do tell her about it.
God, if I'd just been smart enough to keep my mouth closed at Planned Parenthood and nod and say, "Everything is fine, please to be giving me pills now!", I wouldn't have this problem. I'd be swimming in fucking pills right now if I'd just said nothing.
I just can't deal with this mentally. I can't. I have such anxiety about doctors and health care, it's hard for me to even talk to pharmacists, much less doctors. And my fear translates into rage, which bewilders the poor Boy.
Why the FUCK can't they just give me birth control? It's not like I'm trying to get my hands on heroin. It shouldn't be this hard. It really shouldn't.
And of course, I couldn't even get my hands on emergency contraception without a prescription in this country.
My prescription has run out on my birth control. Right now I've still got some glucophage left and one refill on it, so I'm good there and I'm hoarding against need.
But trying to get my hands on birth control without a prescription seems impossible. Trying to do it without repeating the panic-attack inducing, anxious, nerve wracking, emotionally fraught process I went through last year seems even less likely.
Right now I'm lost as to what to do.
For the moment, I'll just be abstaining from sex and trying to stretch my glucophage out.
In October, Andrew's insurance will change and maybe I'll be able to go a doctor, but I don't even know if I could do that. Doctors freak me out so very much. Even the nice ones. I've only had one doctor that I had any kind of good relationship with, and she's in Florida and she wasn't a doctor. She was a nurse-practitioner.
The doctor I went to see at the clinic that would finally even see me is gone. She was nice, and I felt okay with her, but she no longer works with them. So there goes that. I don't think I could go back to that clinic anyway, because it's scary for me.
Planned Parenthood is right out. I love PP for what they stand for, but it really hurts when you know a crackwhore could walk off the street and get all the BC they needed, but they won't help you.
Note to self: don't tell doctors about conditions that aren't their goddamn business. The ob-gyn doesn't need to know about your insulin issues, and she'll withhold medication from you if you do tell her about it.
God, if I'd just been smart enough to keep my mouth closed at Planned Parenthood and nod and say, "Everything is fine, please to be giving me pills now!", I wouldn't have this problem. I'd be swimming in fucking pills right now if I'd just said nothing.
I just can't deal with this mentally. I can't. I have such anxiety about doctors and health care, it's hard for me to even talk to pharmacists, much less doctors. And my fear translates into rage, which bewilders the poor Boy.
Why the FUCK can't they just give me birth control? It's not like I'm trying to get my hands on heroin. It shouldn't be this hard. It really shouldn't.
And of course, I couldn't even get my hands on emergency contraception without a prescription in this country.