Healthcare sucks.
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Ugh. I really hate this part.
My prescription has run out on my birth control. Right now I've still got some glucophage left and one refill on it, so I'm good there and I'm hoarding against need.
But trying to get my hands on birth control without a prescription seems impossible. Trying to do it without repeating the panic-attack inducing, anxious, nerve wracking, emotionally fraught process I went through last year seems even less likely.
Right now I'm lost as to what to do.
For the moment, I'll just be abstaining from sex and trying to stretch my glucophage out.
In October, Andrew's insurance will change and maybe I'll be able to go a doctor, but I don't even know if I could do that. Doctors freak me out so very much. Even the nice ones. I've only had one doctor that I had any kind of good relationship with, and she's in Florida and she wasn't a doctor. She was a nurse-practitioner.
The doctor I went to see at the clinic that would finally even see me is gone. She was nice, and I felt okay with her, but she no longer works with them. So there goes that. I don't think I could go back to that clinic anyway, because it's scary for me.
Planned Parenthood is right out. I love PP for what they stand for, but it really hurts when you know a crackwhore could walk off the street and get all the BC they needed, but they won't help you.
Note to self: don't tell doctors about conditions that aren't their goddamn business. The ob-gyn doesn't need to know about your insulin issues, and she'll withhold medication from you if you do tell her about it.
God, if I'd just been smart enough to keep my mouth closed at Planned Parenthood and nod and say, "Everything is fine, please to be giving me pills now!", I wouldn't have this problem. I'd be swimming in fucking pills right now if I'd just said nothing.
I just can't deal with this mentally. I can't. I have such anxiety about doctors and health care, it's hard for me to even talk to pharmacists, much less doctors. And my fear translates into rage, which bewilders the poor Boy.
Why the FUCK can't they just give me birth control? It's not like I'm trying to get my hands on heroin. It shouldn't be this hard. It really shouldn't.
And of course, I couldn't even get my hands on emergency contraception without a prescription in this country.
My prescription has run out on my birth control. Right now I've still got some glucophage left and one refill on it, so I'm good there and I'm hoarding against need.
But trying to get my hands on birth control without a prescription seems impossible. Trying to do it without repeating the panic-attack inducing, anxious, nerve wracking, emotionally fraught process I went through last year seems even less likely.
Right now I'm lost as to what to do.
For the moment, I'll just be abstaining from sex and trying to stretch my glucophage out.
In October, Andrew's insurance will change and maybe I'll be able to go a doctor, but I don't even know if I could do that. Doctors freak me out so very much. Even the nice ones. I've only had one doctor that I had any kind of good relationship with, and she's in Florida and she wasn't a doctor. She was a nurse-practitioner.
The doctor I went to see at the clinic that would finally even see me is gone. She was nice, and I felt okay with her, but she no longer works with them. So there goes that. I don't think I could go back to that clinic anyway, because it's scary for me.
Planned Parenthood is right out. I love PP for what they stand for, but it really hurts when you know a crackwhore could walk off the street and get all the BC they needed, but they won't help you.
Note to self: don't tell doctors about conditions that aren't their goddamn business. The ob-gyn doesn't need to know about your insulin issues, and she'll withhold medication from you if you do tell her about it.
God, if I'd just been smart enough to keep my mouth closed at Planned Parenthood and nod and say, "Everything is fine, please to be giving me pills now!", I wouldn't have this problem. I'd be swimming in fucking pills right now if I'd just said nothing.
I just can't deal with this mentally. I can't. I have such anxiety about doctors and health care, it's hard for me to even talk to pharmacists, much less doctors. And my fear translates into rage, which bewilders the poor Boy.
Why the FUCK can't they just give me birth control? It's not like I'm trying to get my hands on heroin. It shouldn't be this hard. It really shouldn't.
And of course, I couldn't even get my hands on emergency contraception without a prescription in this country.
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Date: 14 Sep 2008 18:39 (UTC)What the hell is wrong with them? So they want you to be a pregnant insulin resistant person?
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Date: 14 Sep 2008 20:24 (UTC)Apparently. I don't even know what the issue was, because the PP lady wouldn't explain it to me. She just said that she couldn't prescribe me anything and told me to use condoms (but when I checked the box to get free condoms, they didn't give me any, so there goes that).
I don't even know what I'm going to do about the glucophage, because I know that there's no fucking way I'm going to be able to get that without going through hell. But at least I still have time to figure that out.
I really hate doctors.
And take it from me, if you ever get unfortunate enough to get diagnosed with diabetes/insulin resistance, for fucks sake, don't tell anyone about it because you'll never get access to good health care again.
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Date: 14 Sep 2008 20:38 (UTC)But there are a ton of women on birth control pills and glucophage.
I wonder if they'd be keener on giving you something with progesterone only.
Nice of PP to work with you. So helpful!
Good luck with all this craziness.
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Date: 14 Sep 2008 20:57 (UTC)I dunno. I know that when I first got the diagnosis, sometime in 2004, I was put on Yasmin by the nurse practitioner who said I had insulin resistance - but I can't afford that shit, it's very, very expensive even for the generic. So I went back to the ultra-cheap generic Ortho pill because I know you can get it for, like, ten bucks a pop.
Nice of PP to work with you. So helpful!
Ain't they just. Still, I don't want to defame PP. They do a lot of good work!