Warning: Venting/Ranting/Meanness Ahead. Avert your eyes!

[earthbelow]

I would just like to get some stuff off my chest before the new year rolls in because, I'm not taking this with me to 2007. So I'm getting all the vitriol out of my system right now. Karma cleansing, really.

There is a certain person that I am so glad I will not have to deal with in the new year. Some of you know the story behind the "drama", some of you don't. No need to rehash it. It hasn't been a constant worry or anything, but there have been moments where I've been very angry about it.

And there's no reason not to get rid of as much anger as you can.

I will say that I'm not friendslocking this because, frankly, I don't feel the need to hide it. I want it to be open. I want it to be seen. I want the person I'm talking about to at least have the chance to respond to it if they care to.



What pisses me off is that this person outright lied to me. Came to me for help and outright lied about the situation. Asked me to lie. Made things up, told me those things with a straight face, and continued to lie. And probably feels like it was their right to do so.

But what pisses me off even more? The signs were all there. I knew what kind of person they were and I knew that they were lying - but I have this thing about wanting to take my friends' sides in things until I absolutely can't anymore.

I wish I'd realized that this person was no good for me from the get-go.

Not like I wasn't warned.

Take for instance the fact that I really hate people who pretend like they're so original when it turns out they're not original at all. You can't be trendy and original at the same time. And trust me, when you go on and on about your Abercrombie clothes and post catalogue pictures of things you bought - you are *not* original. Also? I can point out at least ten things that this person just outright stole from other people and called their own.

But that would be the pot calling the kettle black. Hey, most of the stuff I latch on to is *not* in anyway original. It's borrowed. Gakked. I'm a big ol' sheep and I admit it. Which strangely, makes me just a little bit more able to think for myself. Because I know that coming up with cute little phrases on my interests does not make me some wild bohemian trendsetter. I also know that getting mad because someone else has the same interests is just childish.

The reason you do things is not to look cool, because somebody's already done it before. You do things because they mean something, because they make you (or, god forbid, OTHER PEOPLE) happy, they're good things.

This person has to look cool because they're not actually cool on the inside, where it matters.

Also, anyone desperate enough for attention who would make up a story about being sexually assaulted should never have been my friend for that long. I've known people who were genuinely raped, assaulted, attacked, and molested. These people do not deserve to have to put up with cops, authority figures, and other folks disbelieving what they went through because of people like this person who cry rape for the sympathy, attention, and their own ends.

I can't believe I let that slide. I feel like I owe an apology to all those other people who have suffered so much for not standing up for them and telling this person how wrong they were.

I wish I had realized a long time ago that this person cares about only one thing and that's their own self. I wish I had not wasted time on this person when I have so many great friends who deserved that time.

In an ideal world, that person would be big enough to apologize to me and admit the truth and make some changes and we might find some way to reconcile from there.

In the actual world, I doubt that person has noticed I'm gone. Which speaks volumes, if you ask me.

Hey, I never claimed to be a genius.

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