It's all about trade-offs

Item One: I miss my dogs so incredibly much. I miss hearing barking. I miss taking them out to walk. I miss playing with them. I miss how fuzzy they were. I miss being woken up by them. I miss their wet noses and their weird habits. I'm afraid they're forgetting me. And I'm afraid one of them will die before I get to see them again.

Item Two: I just realized that if anything ever happens and Andrew goes away, I'm so incredibly screwed. Less than a month and I've completely forgotten how to sleep alone. For the first time in my life, I have someone that touches me as much as I want to be touched. I'm not sure I could go back to how things used to be.