She's gone.
Friday, 2 June 2006 22:30![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I drowned my sorrows in ice cream with my mom. Tried seem happy.
She won't be there on Monday. She won't be there ever again.
And I never realized just how much of my job I put up with just because I liked her so much. Until today, when I realized that the only reason I stayed 20 minutes later was because of her.
Because it meant something to me that she got everything done she wanted to on her last day.
Maybe it's melodramatic, but I kinda loved her. And if I'd been brave, on my way out the door, I would've kissed her. Or at least hugged her.
She made 20+ hours of my life a week *bearable*. Occasionally *fun*.
I looked at the phone extension list on the wall by my desk. I crossed out all the names of people who were gone. After over a year and a half, you do kinda make friends. And I hate seeing people go.
But eventually, someone'll cross out my name.
Feels like this part of my life is starting to fall away piece by piece.
Also? I turned in my graduation application today. And as eager as I am to graduate, I'm still just the tiniest bit scared.
I never *not* been in school. I have been in school since 1989. I have been in school 17 years.
What do you do when you're not in school? Do you just sort of shuffle around and try to find work and pay bills until you die?
Feels like going from the kiddie pool to the middle of Pacific Ocean.
She won't be there on Monday. She won't be there ever again.
And I never realized just how much of my job I put up with just because I liked her so much. Until today, when I realized that the only reason I stayed 20 minutes later was because of her.
Because it meant something to me that she got everything done she wanted to on her last day.
Maybe it's melodramatic, but I kinda loved her. And if I'd been brave, on my way out the door, I would've kissed her. Or at least hugged her.
She made 20+ hours of my life a week *bearable*. Occasionally *fun*.
I looked at the phone extension list on the wall by my desk. I crossed out all the names of people who were gone. After over a year and a half, you do kinda make friends. And I hate seeing people go.
But eventually, someone'll cross out my name.
Feels like this part of my life is starting to fall away piece by piece.
Also? I turned in my graduation application today. And as eager as I am to graduate, I'm still just the tiniest bit scared.
I never *not* been in school. I have been in school since 1989. I have been in school 17 years.
What do you do when you're not in school? Do you just sort of shuffle around and try to find work and pay bills until you die?
Feels like going from the kiddie pool to the middle of Pacific Ocean.
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Date: 3 Jun 2006 21:52 (UTC)no subject
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Date: 4 Jun 2006 02:19 (UTC)*MEG SMASH*!
(BTW, I just wanted to let you know both how much I love being surrounded by a coupla comedians!) :)
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Date: 4 Jun 2006 03:17 (UTC)no subject
Date: 4 Jun 2006 02:22 (UTC)And thanks for the moral support.
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Date: 4 Jun 2006 03:15 (UTC)